Hold Everything Close
These past couple weeks have been eye opening.
My cousin/godfather has been in the ICU twice in the past two weeks, with no known reason with what's wrong. The outcome isn't the best news but it isn't the worst either. He's going to be okay right now and that's what matters,
This brings me back to four years ago when his dad, my uncle, was sick. Slowly losing every part of him that I had grown up knowing. He was forgetting everything. Once he began the forgetting process, I made the naive decision of not seeing him that way. To try and remember him for who he was while I was little. Looking back on this, I see that as a dumb teenage way out.
When the doctors gave him a certain number of weeks left, my family went to visit him while I had to work. I kick myself by feeling like I should have called off that day, it would have been okay to miss that one day of work. But, I was 18 and stupid and there's no going back. I have my memories of him and those are what I'm holding near and dear to my heart.
I love him and I know that no matter what that when I see a penny that he's with me.
This week, my freshman roommate, my best friend at school lost her grandmother. While we don't talk today, this is the girl that helped me through some of the hardest transitions of my life. Freshman year was rough but my roommate was able to help me through that and I'm forever grateful for that.
She was extremely close to her grandma and my heart is breaking for her. She was the inspiration for my first tattoo. My heart goes out to her. I hold every memory close to my heart especially when her grandma would send us food and make sure everyone was as safe as they could be.
Hold everyone close to your heart. I may not be the best at showing my emotions but they're there. I have very strong feelings for a lot of people, a lot of things, and life.
Lately I've seen everything for what it holds and I'm holding everything close; whether it be my memories, experiences, current life.
From my favorite movie along with one of the corny lines out there, "I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."
Love is a crazy emotion.
My cousin/godfather has been in the ICU twice in the past two weeks, with no known reason with what's wrong. The outcome isn't the best news but it isn't the worst either. He's going to be okay right now and that's what matters,
This brings me back to four years ago when his dad, my uncle, was sick. Slowly losing every part of him that I had grown up knowing. He was forgetting everything. Once he began the forgetting process, I made the naive decision of not seeing him that way. To try and remember him for who he was while I was little. Looking back on this, I see that as a dumb teenage way out.
When the doctors gave him a certain number of weeks left, my family went to visit him while I had to work. I kick myself by feeling like I should have called off that day, it would have been okay to miss that one day of work. But, I was 18 and stupid and there's no going back. I have my memories of him and those are what I'm holding near and dear to my heart.
I love him and I know that no matter what that when I see a penny that he's with me.
This week, my freshman roommate, my best friend at school lost her grandmother. While we don't talk today, this is the girl that helped me through some of the hardest transitions of my life. Freshman year was rough but my roommate was able to help me through that and I'm forever grateful for that.
She was extremely close to her grandma and my heart is breaking for her. She was the inspiration for my first tattoo. My heart goes out to her. I hold every memory close to my heart especially when her grandma would send us food and make sure everyone was as safe as they could be.
Hold everyone close to your heart. I may not be the best at showing my emotions but they're there. I have very strong feelings for a lot of people, a lot of things, and life.
Lately I've seen everything for what it holds and I'm holding everything close; whether it be my memories, experiences, current life.
From my favorite movie along with one of the corny lines out there, "I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."
Love is a crazy emotion.
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